Monday, February 28, 2011

Monday is just another day...

Awakened this morning by my son crying about have to go to school. That was at about 6:30 A.M. I have been up ever since. He didn't want to debut his new glasses in front of his classmates today so that will happen Tuesday, I hope. Garbage night so that had to be gathered and taken out. Since then I have done little to nothing. Wish I had some money so I cold go somewhere, ANYWHERE.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Sunday will never be the same...

It's been a long weekend. My son had a friend over all weekend. Nothing like dealing with 2 preteen boys wandering the house for 48 hours plus. Video games being played along with arguments about said games. I saw my wife in passing as she slept while I was downstairs and visa-versa. It's was laundry day so that all had to be done. Watched the race while folding. I actually considered watching the Oscars tonight but gave up when I realized that I wasn't really interested. The award shows hold my attention long enough to enetertain for, maybe, an hour. I am so tired still...and I just wish I could get proper rest.

Saturday, February 26, 2011

Saturday in the house...

A simply day today. Woke up around 10 A.M. and did nothing. I am feeling as though I may be suffering from Africa sleeping sickness or maybe I have become a teenager again. I could sleep all day and stay up all night. I feel like most of the time is spent thinking of things I don't really want to do and the rest of the time is not doing those things.

While he was alive my Dad and I hardly spoke and when we did it was short and to the point and lacked the depth that I see and hear as others speak to parents. I feel lost and adrift since he is gone. I am confused about the simplest of things and could really use some direction but cannot find anyone to help me with that. My wife suggested consoling but I really see no sense since I really cannot describe what is bothering me.

Perhaps tomorrow will be a better day.

Friday, February 25, 2011

The new beginning...

I started this what seems like ages ago to write about and share music. Times have changed. I no longer have any desire to share any of that and am now starting all over here. I recently, well in November, lost my father and have been having difficulty dealing with the loss. Starting tomorrow I will be using this as an online diary in hope that it will help me deal with my grieving and get myself back on track.

I am a stay at home father living in the Midwestern United States. The main thing I do is make sure that my youngest son, who is autistic but HIGHLY functional, has all the support he needs to get through a day. I am happily married to my best friend who supports our family in her career as an RN at a local nursing home. There are others of my family, both blood and by marriage, that I am sure will appear on these pages intermittently. Well that's about all I feel needs to be included in the start. By all means, if you want please comment.

It all begins on the morrow...